From the very beginning of my yoga path I have loved the asana practice. I can remember the first year, the time of discovering so many layers in my body through the breath. The breathing gave me access to another world. The world of mysticism. It softened my body and my mind and I often started to feel I was melting into something greater and more beautiful. The practice felt like a deepening of my whole being into something I had missed all my life. Being in the body with all the sensations it implied, meant being alive. Totally alive. Totally incarnated in a sacred body. 🥰
A year ago my life changed in this regard. For the first time I couldn’t get into the asanas. I was stiff. My body hurt. I was feeling the asana practice was superficial. The asanas didn’t have the habitual effect of bringing me to heaven. That was new to me. I couldn’t find a reason to my stiffness and like absence of spirit in my body. I was relaxed, I felt very good in my life and I could be present in my body, but still I felt I can’t get anywhere. That phase lasted several months during which I tried to understand what was going on in my system.
Then in July I was able to travel to my home in Paris 🥖 👩🎨 🪗 and to enjoy its beauty and joyful atmosphere❤️🔥. I could also finally take ballet classes. All the pain was suddenly and unexpectedly 😲 gone the first day in Paris. I don’t know if my home sickness had been so strong in my body that it was aching, but that’s the only reason I can find. In Paris my asanas started to feel again. I did the Intermediate series easily and happily and I could really feel how I AM in every asana. I was going deep into the asanas, because my body wanted to. I was blissed again.
It was an important lesson for me in many ways. Personally I had had an adventure in stiffness and in this kind of thin feeling of being in my body. I lived a period of separation of body and mind. I could follow how all this evolved and how it ended. One danger I could luckily avoid was to think that I’ve become stiff for good. I was stiff for many months, but my mind was open for me to become flexible again.
As a yoga teacher I was thinking that when people start practicing, even if they are flexible and/or open-minded, they can’t get to the perfect feeling of an asana. It’s impossible. The asana is a deep experience of living in all the cells of your body, of relaxation of your mind into your body. An asana awakens your body, your nervous system, your energy body and your spirit. To be in an asana is to feel all this. 🙏🧡